J.E # 7

     When it comes to Religion I really don't know if I face a Border or not.  My family is Catholic.  We believe in God y La Virgen de Guadalupe y el niño diós and etc but we don't really preach it.  We don't go to Church unless something is going on: wedding, bautizo, funeral, etc.  I don't know the bible and I know the general story the one I see on T.V during christmas time but thats about it.  My mom never really imposed religion on us.  My older brother goes to church every Sunday and we were brought up the same way.  I don't know why he found a devotion to God and why I didn't.  I guess I always questioned God because even though I pray to him it never seems to  work. Life is so hard and I have faced so many obstacles in my life and it hasn't been easy on me and every time I was put in a difficult situation I ask where was God then?  Which could be seen as a border my belief in God yet my question does he really exist? I guess I just never really thought of Religion as a border because even though I believe in a higher power I'm still not really devoted.  I don't really know what more to say on Religion and my border because I don't feel I have come to confront this border or realize I even have a border or what I actually feel.    
     Religion has always been a strong tool for the colonizer to dominate and oppress the colonized.  One example that has always bugged me was that Religion was used to justify slavery.  Slave owners would find passages in the bible to make it seem as though they were meant to serve the Anglos and once they suffered here on Earth they would be rewarded later for it in the after life.  Religion was a very important tool I know that was used through out time by the colonizer to oppress the colonized.  Many people then did have a strong belief in God and the after life which is a reason that religion was able to be used as such a powerful tool to oppress people.  If they didn't obey then they would not make it into heaven.  The fact that Anglos were able to do this is very disturbing.  The reason I say that is because you are taking something that is suppose to be holly and putting it in the hands of the devil.  Its astonishing to me that so many people believed that if they didn't obey then God would punish them. God is suppose to be good and where all his children and he loves us all equally then why would anyone think that he prefers the colonizers?  Which is probably one of the main reasons that I have my doubts about God because how can he allow all this to happen?  How can you justify the holocaust, Wars, all the bad things that have happened to so many people.  Where was God then and where is he now?  I can't believe that something like Religion which we have no evidence actually exist something that is just a BELIEF can help the colonizer oppress the colonized.